Is it still July? Or am I Quitting?

I'm tired. I'm more than tired. I'm exhausted.

I started this artistic path in 2003. I've written books. I've published comics. I went to college (and dropped out - twice). You probably already read my sob story - or maybe not, no one reads these lmao.

Whenever I open my art software or pull the website up, my energy drops, my motivation is basically nothing and all I can see is a dark tunnel with NO light at the end, not even at the beginning. What is that, y'know? I don't like looking at the characters, I don't like reading the plots over and over again..

I created a webtoons comic called "Lanloden Story" that was widely popular. But I couldn't afford to do it anymore and after a 2 month hiatus, most of that steam had gone.

And that wasn't even my passion project, at the time.

Compliments like "That's great!" or "your art is amazing!" are more comments that just make me tired or shrug. So it's great...but not great or amazing enough to afford a happy meal. Going this long, for this many years without any real validation is wearing me out and I don't know if I want to keep picking up the pen.

yeah in your dreams maybe...